I'm sorry if this post has weird or unreader-friendly fonts but the com i'm using now doesn't allow me to change it.
This week has been totally horrible for me...for the past 48hours here since i last booked out...i've been thinking of ending this course...right here n right now...suddenly everything is not worth it. suddenly i felt that i would definitely have rejected the posting if i was posted here again.
No time for music at all these days. No time for friends. No time to sort out my mind. No time for my soul to be fed.
Being officer really doesn't seem like my kinda thing...today's tactics exam totally killed me. I was that close to handing up a black piece of paper. What's more...i'm gonna dig mud in the rain again for the next 2 or 3 days...everything seems so dark n lifeless. I'm sleepy, tired, I dunno my stuff well and I can't lead battles.
But thank God for the few very special blessings. Things with you (choon mei) has been cleared. My saint has reminded me so much about the bond we'll always share no matter where we are. Thank God that somehow He managed to delay my outfield exercise with the rain...which allows me to be listening to my fav music...catching up with some of the peep's happenings on blogs...and typing this blog.
I may not complete this course afterall, may remain single all my life, may not get to do what i want for a living, may lose friends, may die later, but.....life's still beautiful=)
